Trauma much

March 2019. English.

I don’t love you
I love the way I feel
While I am with you.

Loving myself
Accepting myself
Was the hardest task
I ever faced.

And still is.

There is this difference
Between being loved
And feeling loved.

But you don’t get it
do you, Dear ?
When I say
I don’t feel loved.


That is because
I don’t feel love
As a concept.

Caring about you
Do I make you feel loved ?
Though I do not know
How to feel it myself ?


How do you know
Someone is truly
Feeling loved?

When you can’t even
Experience this feeling
For yourself
In the first place.