March 2019. English.
I want to cry
And I want to shout
I can feel all the pores
Of my skin
Breathing
This overwhelming day
Too many emotions
To deal with
Too many people
Draining my energy
And I am vanishing
In this crowd
Unable to cry
Unable to shout
Just alone
With myself
With my guts
Telling me
Just breath
Deep
Again
And again
You will go through this
Just like you always do
Look away
Smile
Pretend
Everything is going to be fine
Even if
In fine
It won’t
But for now
Just focus
Buy us some time
Until we meet again
As we always do
When you want to cry
And you want to shout
Unable to breath
Alone in the crowd.